And we met with a cardiologist at Children's Hospital to walk us through Faith's heart condition. He drew a picture of a healthy heart and then a picture of Faith's heart with its atrial septal defect.
We also toured the NICU at Children's Hospital in case Faith ended up being healthy enough to be transferred there. That was a depressing visit for sure.
After we met with Dr. Idowu and after we had some counsel from a pastor at our church Shiloh and I were able to come up with a birth plan. We decided that we would not intubate her if she was unable to breathe on her own. We left the use of Epinephrine open and would decide when we met her and upon the circumstance. We gave our birth plan to the hospital ahead of time and the staff was alerted to our situation.
During this time I had good days and bad. Days when I just broke down and SOBBED and days when I didn't shed a tear. And fortunately, Shiloh and I usually broke down at different times and could support each other accordingly.
P.S. I need to finish this blog, but so not to leave you hanging. Faith was born 5 1/2 weeks early. We held her and loved on her for four days. And then she went home to heaven. There is a lot more to the story, but I just haven't got to finishing it yet.
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Thanks for sharing the Hagen Families Faith. The courage that you and your husband live by can only be explained as one of Gods Miracles. Your family is truly blessed that you are able to bring so many friends and family to the table to witness your families strength just witnessing this act in itself can save so many from darkest of days. Love and Aloha to you and yours. One of your biggest fans.
Daina Auger Nye...Honolulu Hawaii
Your testimony here really touches me. Your marriage reflects Christ's relationship with us (oh, that we would reflect that all the time) and your faithfulness reminds me of Paul's humility in recording his struggles and in reporting God's goodness and faithfulness.
What a beautiful story. I know you cannot wait to see her again on resurrection day, when an angel brings her and places her in your arms. You are an amazing woman of God. What a blessing the Nigerian doctor was to you. PTL
beautiful story. i cant wait to read the rest.
Wendy,
I don't know how in the world I haven't read Faith's story, but I am so very, very glad that I did. What a journey you and Shiloh walked. What a testimony to God's love, promises, and strength. I look forward to meeting your beautiful, perfect daughter in heaven. She was born on my birthday. I will always think of the party Jesus is throwing for her on that day. Thanks so much for sharing her life.
Your testimony through your experience is amazing - My eyes are wet with so many emotions of happiness, courage, sadness and anxiousness - I look forward to reading more of your journey with Faith - now I know the name of the brightest Star in the sky & the Angel. Its funny because I heard yesterday - "God Takes those from us that have already served their purpose, so they can rest peacefully in his kingdom" - The Miracle of Faith has transcended thru many hearts to fill hers.
Thank you for sharing Faith's story. You are amazing for staying so strong and leaning on Shiloh. And to continue to pray and remain strong in your faith- well, it's all the exact opposite of my story. What an admirable woman you are, sweet Wendy.
Wendy, thanks so much for opening your heart to anyone who will read. It is so lovely (there is no better word for it to me) how God cares tenderly for His children and uses troubles to draw them closer to His side. My husband and I are support raising to be missionaries right now and feel such despair at times since the financial part is coming so slowly, but it is amazing how DAILY, He brings into perspective the difficulties of my life and that I must trust Him with this and BIGGER challenges to come - and the blessings of one healthy toddler and one apparently healthy baby on the way. Your writing shows how real your response to baby Faith was; that it's possible to walk through even THIS unimaginably hard thing, one of the things I fear the worst, and cling to His promises of love and goodness for us.
So thank you, I look forward to seeing the rest whenever you get to finishing it. And if you made it a book, I would buy it. :)
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