Journal Entry - People come to church with us & some of my fears

Some of this is repeat, but I am going through my journal and this is verbatim from it.

September 15, 2002 Journal Entry

2:15pm
"Mom, Dad, Kevin, Erin, Cameron, Casey, Kylie, Solmaz, Michael, Forest, Dre, Pete and Kirby all went to Cornerstone with us this morning. I am so excited. I pray tey would be pierced by God's word. I introduced myself, Shiloh and my parents to Pastor Steve. He prayed for for us. He prayed for Faith to be healed."

3:15pm
"Here are some of my fears:
I am more afraid of Faith living than dying. I am afraid to see her. I want to think she is beautiful and because of all her deformities I fear that I will gasp when I see her. I am afraid that I will not be able to give her the care she needs. I am afraid she will suffer. I am afraid she will live to be 10 years old and I will be running on empty. That being said, I know God will give me strength to give what I need, love how he does. It just needs to sink into my heart. He has taken me this far, I need to trust him 100%. I just felt Faith move. I start week 23 tomorrow. I have a Dr. appt. at 4:30 tomorrow with Dr. Leach."

Then I wrote these verses:
Psalm 100:5
"Know that the Lord himself is God; It is he who has made us, and not we ourselves; We are the people of his pasture."

Luke 17:5
"And the apostles said to the Lord, 'Increase our faith.'"

II Corinthians 5:7
"For we walk b faith, not by sight.