Some of my Fears

Later on September 12 I journaled this:
"Here are some of my fears:
I am more afraid of Faith living than dying. I am afraid to see her. I want to think she is beautiful and because of all her deformities I am afraid I will gasp when I see her. I am afraid that I will not be able to give her the care she needs. I am afraid she will suffer. I am afraid she will live to be 10 years old and I will be running on empty. That being said, I know God will give me the strength to give what I need, love how he does. It just needs to sink into my heart. He has taken me this far, I need to trust Him 100%. I just felt Faith move. I start 23 weeeks tomorrow. I have a Dr. Appt. at 4:30 tomorrow with Dr. Leach.

Psalm 100:3 "Know that the Lord Himself is God. It is He who has made us, and not we ourselve; we are the people of His pasture."

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